Message | I appreciate your honesty, but it seems from reading some of your articles that your "young" faith in Christ was based on a faulty assumption that Jesus and Christianity were supposed to make life great. You say your Christian faith "gave me a powerful feeling of purpose, made me happy, and I even got a lot of prayers answered through it," but when circumstances went bad for you, you began wondering why, and doubted / disengaged from your beliefs. Now you say you are into New Age / Eastern paths looking for bliss. Well, I'm afraid you totally misunderstand Jesus and the Scriptures and invite you to continue to be open minded and consider that you missed the entire point, for it is obvious you are misguided. For instance, you say, "How could a passionate devoted Christian on fire for the Lord who preached the Gospel to others be repaid with Schizophrenia and live with an inner indescribable hell for two years?" Look to Jesus. Was he "repaid" for perfection by getting mocked, tortured and crucified? No. Jesus endured the cross "for the joy set before Him." His entire focus was not on this life, but Heaven. If your life is focused on this life, you will die. You have a deeply flawed understanding of evil, sin, human nature and human suffering. You also have a very shallow understanding of Scripture, which I would suggest you continue to study more deeply. I pray that God would lift your eyes above trying to make life work here on this barren rock. God bless |